Day #3 in the face of extinction...thinking about day #2....was lonely and failure-feeling amongst family from afar...going nowhere...when i gave them the rundown of my future i didn't believe myself...routine answers...watched as their speculative gazes penetrated my subterfuge..have to hurry before i start losing important friends...have to deny the hermitesque dao i have tended to...i am a shaolin satellite...

so far day#3 is manic...hope to watch hockey with friends...have to include them into my life...